Posted by Janna from Tami's journal.
I am facing the mountain again. As I look up at the impossible task of conquering this climb, I almost despair. Chemo is a huge hurdle; a huge mountain I must climb. All too often it is a mental challenge…I need to climb beyond the physical issues of my illness. My mental and emotional health has a big impact on my well-being. My spiritual self suffers as well. Sometimes I feel alone and abandoned. I need to climb beyond this, this time. Monday is coming…my mountain looms. I must run towards the Giant, not away from it.
I am facing the mountain again. As I look up at the impossible task of conquering this climb, I almost despair. Chemo is a huge hurdle; a huge mountain I must climb. All too often it is a mental challenge…I need to climb beyond the physical issues of my illness. My mental and emotional health has a big impact on my well-being. My spiritual self suffers as well. Sometimes I feel alone and abandoned. I need to climb beyond this, this time. Monday is coming…my mountain looms. I must run towards the Giant, not away from it.
Duet 4:9, this promise was given to me this day, 4/27/10! I receive it! I will make known to my children and my children’s children how loving and awesome is our God :-). Cancer has served its purpose; it brought me back to my purpose in life. God, family, friends and focus. I feel incredibly threatened and desperately vulnerable because of this disease. Sometimes I feel like I can’t possibly matter to God; I feel so alone and so abandoned. I need to hold onto His promises of eternal love, that He will never leave me nor forsake me. How wonderful to feel so loved. So many are praying for me – what peace and hope that imparts to me. I am a survivor! Each day that I live, I have beat this cancer for that day.